Finally a weekend with Friends… MARVELOUS

This Saturday I decided to spend quality time with actual humans instead of huddled up in front of my laptop and hanging out with the Munchkin.

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Although Seti is a very cute munchkin…

I hadn’t seen my friends in 3 + weeks. I never wanted to plan anything at the weekend so that I could give myself enough time to get things done…. But this tactic tends to lead me to having more time to procrastinate rather than me actually getting more work done.. so moral of the story: Take breaks, have fun and embrace your social life (in moderation?).

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I mean, okay, maybe I over exaggerated a little. I did “go out” as in leave the house for my favourite stretching and body pump classes every weekend, but because those are at really annoying, mid-day times, they really mess with my time-management (or lack thereof). So I was thus faced with the difficult choice between socializing and working out (I generally chose the latter for highly justifiable reasons: Once I am out with my friends, I am OUT... so if I “just” workout I technically should be investing more time into my studies… technically..).

I did however do at least 1 marvelous thing each weekend.. let me start with weekend 1:

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Friday: Lichthof Party in the main University building. This was a once in a lifetime experience where we got to dance in the actual building. The great part about this party was that EVERYONE was there because it was the place to be if you were a student, i.e. I got to see a lot of my old classmates, which is always a treat after being away and losing touch with so many.

There were 3 dance “halls”, one of which was being DJayed by none other than Nachtseminar… so you probably know where I spent most of my time right?

Have I mentioned I have started flyering for my favourite party?

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Weekend 2, I didn’t go out (shocker) but enjoyed a wonderful dinner with my mom on Sunday.

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Crêpes for dinner and dessert? I will take it 🙂 Restaurant recap definitely coming soon, but I need to revisit the quaint café for some better pictures first 🙂 (and more dessert…)

And finally last weekend: I started my weekend by FINALLY going to dance class! It felt great to be “home”, but I was in mega pain on Saturday… not dancing (except for in clubs – no judgement) for 6 months really has a remarkable impact on your body.. like mine totally forgot which muscles to use, and my legs were shaking during both hours (Barre a Terre and Jazz).

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On Saturday, I met up with some of my girlfriends for drinks at Grande – my second favourite place after Dante (actually they are head to head as they are both owned by the same owner, i.e same concept, same cocktails.)

I went all out with the mascara… going out is such a “special occasion” now that I really took my time and made an ordeal out of my makeup routine…

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We sat outside due to lack of space and soon started to feel the October chill… my friends wanted to “warm up” with some pizza (I was still full of Kabocha, addiction obsession still going strong (I eat it almost daily, and devour an entire squash in warp speed #sorrynotsorry)), but the place we went to was out, so we did what any cold student would do… we went to Starbucks.

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And since I am now studying Media- and Communications, I feel like I should state that this is unintentional product placement…. we just like to hang out there.. a lot

I had steamed soy milk with a pump of pumpkin spice syrup. Tis the season after all… #allthepumpkin #allthetime

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We felt like 16-year old high school students again, where you were “forced” to hang out at Starbucks because you were too young for bars (technically allowed to drink wine and beer at 16 here, but I never cared for it then..). This déja vù called for a #throwback selfie!

I was in bed, lights out at 1. The polar opposite of my usual self… but I had a paper to complete and body pump to attend #favouriteworkout

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I also ate more kabocha, took a few naps and walked the munchkin. Oh, and I tested a new overnight mask from Origins… blog post coming soon (along with the other one that I had promised… saving that for my next, longish, study break 😉 )

IMG_4183So that’s all for now! Not much besides eat, sleep, sports, study, occasional outing and repeat, but I promise to report back with my promised posts ASAP!

Have a great Tuesday! I just did my nails while reading for class tomorrow and am now off to a dance class… talk about productive, huh 🙂

With attitude and nail polish, Anoushé xoxo

How can it only have been 3 Weeks!

Please apologise my short hiatus. I honestly didn’t see this one coming. I even started typing up a draft for Thinking out Loud two weeks ago to tell you all about my first week, but being overwhelmed by reading kinda sorta got in the way….

Fast forward two weeks later, and I am slowly coming back to my senses. Sure, I need to do A LOT – but so does everyone else, and somehow they still have an actual life… so I took a step back and reevaluated the whole scenario. I watched myself in slow-motion and tried to find the errors in my ways. I even flash-backed to my literature heavy time at SLC to aid my “autobiographical research” and noticed a terrible pattern that could possibly lead me directly to a very fast, immediately doomed burn-out:

I mean too well when it comes to the (suggested and recommended) readings.

Long gone are the high-school days of only needing to read a shortish book for a language class or a few chapters of biology at most. These few pages were easily summarised and didn’t steal time away from revision or paper-writing (or more importantly my social life, which is basically non-existent right now). No, university brings forth pages upon pages of “important and valuable” reading that supports course work and helps with understanding the subject matter – and could also doom me to all-nighters and being permanently behind on EVERYTHING. And being the person that I am, I began to freak out when I noticed that it took me almost an hour to read (and summarise) about 10 pages of “required” reading….That’s when I started to analyse a presumed fault in my ways… and found the probable error that had already caused major panic attacks at SLC.

I have forced myself to come to terms with the fact that sometimes a summary isn’t really all that necessary. Plus, it is a mega time consumer. Sometimes just reading can be enough. This is actually my current mantra to my inner nerdy, over-achieving self, especially after I noticed that the professors base their lectures almost entirely on the books they recommend (they are oftentimes also the authors) and offer an acceptable summary of the 40 pages, albeit not as exact as I may have done it, but almost definitely exact enough for the exam in January knowing that I am currently only 3 weeks in and have already received so much information at a really high speed to process.

So that being said, I have now after 3 weeks been able to figure out a system I hope will work, as I have identified some lectures as “exact reciprocations of the reading” where I will thus do the reading but only highlight the text and summarise after the lecture if I feel I am missing information, and lectures that require “discussions of the reading” where a summary could definitely come in handy because the information of the presentation isn’t as exact or informative. Oh and I also found a class that requires mainly practice exercises and little theory (microeconomics) and so I will put more emphasis on the practical work than the learning by heart.

Boy am I glad today is Thinking out Loud Thursday and I can share all my thoughts with you all. I am sure you are highly interested in my super-exciting student life with mounds of studying and like zero social interactions 😉 Thanks Amanda for hosting!

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1. When we last spoke it was September. Like what the what calendar, how can there only be 3 months left to 2014. I feel like I literally JUST came home from New York.

source: Pinterest

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2. I’ve been making my protein smoothie a lot for breakfast lately. Today I added some fun nutritional-science things to it like glutamine and BCAA’s etc etc (i.e. there were a lot of different powders in there) and for some weird reason, it just didn’t want to mix with the banana and raspberries. What’s more, the smoothie sort of bypassed the frozen fruit in my blender and kind of formed 3 different layers: A top layer of something that resembled molten marshmallow, a centre layer of frozen fruit and a bottom layer of what my usual smoothie would have been like. This has never happened to me before, so I am blaming the additional powders… Well not really blaming, as I got marshmallow fluff out of it (yay) …but it was weird nonetheless.

3. I’ve been using either blush or bronzer (or both) daily lately. I’m not sure how I feel about it. I never used to wear blush as my cheeks are naturally rosy, but I found university to be the perfect time to start experimenting with new makeup looks. I still sport my beloved cat eye though. Also I have started to sometimes wear mascara for my super early (8 am) classes, where I have to get up at 6 because the communications students are the “lucky” ones who get to travel all around town to the various different University campuses to get to class.

I sometimes also wear lipstick. I am officially growing up.

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…although it is aggressively Barbie pink. So nope, not growing up just yet 😀

4. I mentioned last time that I would be sharing a great post with you soon. I guess that was a white lie, as I no longer think it will be soon, more like in the near future. But it will be worth the wait. I promise!

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Cacao Chanel and Kale Lagerfeld. YES!

6. Speaking of juices…I’ve been indulging in loads of vibrant smoothies lately. It’s all I ever want for breakfast, snacks and sometimes even dinner after a fun body pump sesh.

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(recipes coming soon)

7. I am reunited with this little munchkin!

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8.  I really LOVE being a student and really hope I can sort out this whole studying thing because I have yet to experience “student life”. Also, I found this post rather amusing, but it doesn’t apply to me at all because I love to cook and experiment with different diets (like the whole paleo and high carb, Raw Till 4 approaches)

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9. I have some new additions to my accessories that I cannot get enough of:

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10. Another secret I have discovered that might improve my study efficiency is an iced caramel macchiato. I read faster, type quicker and generally feel so much more productive (read: hyperactivity for the win). I just hope I can fall asleep…

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I really hope I will get round to posting again soon! I’m off to summarise a lecture and do some reading for tomorrow…

Happy Thursdaaaaay 🙂

With attitude and nail polish, Anoushé xoxo

Thinking out Loud Thursday – 2 Weeks at home

For someone who actually really enjoys travelling and hopes to one day discover loads of the world, home has become the unwritten answer to all my problems. No matter what I am going through or dealing with, I know my life in Zürich will always cheer me up. During those last few days leading up to my departure from Munich, I was obsessed with counting down to when I got to return to the life I had missed. Don’t get me wrong, I adored my job and the people I got to meet, and all I got to experience – I wouldn’t trade it for the world… but living in New York and then Munich has taught me that I am a creature of habit. I am also someone who likes to please others too much, and thus forget that it would actually keep me more sane to “do my own thing” sometimes and even be alone.. despite my über-open personality… but that’s a story for another time.

I have now in retrospect learned to accept that I don’t really enjoy living with people who are very different from myself. For if I do, I tend to put things I enjoy or ways I prefer to act on the side to make and keep them happy, which of course results in me being very unhappy.. long story short: I miss my food processor, a kitchen full of vegetables and fruit and all my beauty products scattered in an organized mess. Those things were MEGA- lacking while living with others… I have learned how to treat myself well and what things make me feel good, and most importantly I strive on structured days I can fully control. I craved my weekends at home; I filled my days with yummy food, dance and body pump classes and my evenings with friends whenever I was home for the weekend – I felt free, and I have been enjoying this now seemingly never-ending freedom to the max for the last 2 weeks. No needing to return to Munich. I am home. For good.

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There are some things I have started to miss in Munich though…

1. My favourite café with the cute barista. I visited the café during my last week to give him one last chance to ask me out on a date, but he wasn’t there….

I coincidentally got to go again during the week, and also left with a steaming mug of matcha, but no phone number.

It wasn’t meant to be I guess 😉

2. My membership at Munich Gym expired during my second to last week and I sort of avoided going back because I didn’t want to pay the daily rate 3 times (which is almost as high as the monthly one). I ended up not going on Monday, because the classes I do are almost identical to Thursday (when I had planned to go anyways) , and had a yummy green smoothie in town instead 🙂 When I went in on Tuesday and explained the situation, the guy at the front desk told me he would deal with it. So I went and got changed, came back with my wallet and asked him what it would cost me and he said I should speak to the manager. She then generously extended my last month through the end of August (although my card had run out mid August). I was stunned and shocked by their kindness, and so very thankful that I got an extra week to enjoy my favourite gym… such a shame my flu took over and I had to stay in bed the rest of the week 😦 Sure, the gym in Zürich is great, but the community in Munich felt like this big fitness family.. all the more reason to return ;), even if it’s just for CXWorks, the protein shake bar and champagne after class.

3. I really miss the people I met and the friends I made – especially the girls from other magazines. I also really enjoyed all the press days and product launches where it was warmly welcomed to dive headfirst into my obsession with cosmetics

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Oh and of course, being published was kinda cool too 😉

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(there’s even one more page to come with my name on it!)

4. There are some things I am really enjoying being back in Zürich though too, like the ability to visit my cousin because he only lives a train ride away. Let me tell you, a 2.5 h train ride to Geneva is NOTHING in comparison to the nearly 5 I endured TWICE each weekend. The trip over to the French-speaking part of Switzerland was like a walk in the park… oh and I ate something amazing: Truffled Sushi! like, whoa whoa whoa how could that be so DELICIOUS? My taste buds have really been exposed to some great foods since I have been more open to eating fish.. like the afore-mentioned truffle salmon nigiri. I wish I had gotten a picture.. I guess I have to visit Geneva soon to take a picture of the yumminess 😉

5. It’s also great to go to my favourite restaurants with some of the best people. I mean, I do realise I used to go eat at these places at least once a week before leaving, but during this half-year away, I  barely ever got to go… I am quite surprised that I haven’t overdosed on Nagasui, Hiltl and Tiffins by now though, and have been enjoying cooking at home a lot. I’ve been a food prepping genius lately, but have noticed a tendency of convincing myself I need to snack when I am not even really hungry just because “the food is ready and tasty”.

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Like the dent I made in this roasted kabocha squash (did I mention how much I am loving this amazing squash?) A quarter of the pan is missing..

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And another quarter disappeared at around 3 am when I was not able to fall asleep because I couldn’t stop thinking of the deliciousness (I hadn’t eaten kabocha in years, so saying I could barely contain my excitement when I took the roasted goodness out of the oven would be a major understatement)

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I also tested this whole high carb, low-fat, 80/10/10, rawtill4 thing for a day.

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I made a mango banana smoothie with a papaya carrot centre. It was voluminous and filling, but didn’t keep me from finishing off the afore-mentioned kabocha.. I ended up caving and cooking some tofu for lunch when eating another massive smoothie or 500 g of grapes didn’t seem too appealing. So technically still going strong with the low-fat thing, but staying “raw until four” is tough!

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I did manage to fit in a green protein smoothie before Bodypump though 🙂 And I had loads of energy. Carbs are a weight-lifter’s best friend!

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6. So uhm guys, I can’t believe I actually waited until number six to tell you this, but: I am starting University today. Again. For the third time. But for real this time, I promise…. I’ve put a lot of work into prepping for this day and feel (slightly) confident, but am also so so so very nervous and putting way too much pressure on myself, because I really want things to work out this time round. I am staying in Zürich, which will definitely help the process as I won’t have to get used to a new city, live with strangers (see above 😉 ) and find new friends, like the last 2 times. I am full of joy and excitement (and a little bit of anxiety) and cannot wait to fill my brain with knowledge… I am majoring in Media and Communications and minoring in Management and Economics. I will probably be taking on French next semester as well and hope to add a second minor next year (Farsi) if things work out with my schedule.

7. I am in love with this weather. The smell of Winter approaching, leaves turning orange and cozy evenings with warm, cinnamony almond milk keeping you toasty, while during the day the sun is still warm enough to barely need that woolly sweater. I love this transitional time and am not looking forward to my Ugg boots and trekking through the snow to classes, and don’t really miss the scorching heat either.. I wonder if there is a place in the world where they only have one and a half seasons: Autumn and some Spring (I adore the months before Summer, but could do without those rain showers)

8. Tomorrow I will be sharing my weekly fitness post and I think you will be surprised to see how little I have been dancing (not at clubs!) since I’ve been back. I am quite shocked myself that I can’t seem to motivate myself to go to class, whereas I have not missed a single Bodypump training since I’ve been back. I’ve made up so many excuses as to why I shouldn’t go dance, and sometimes just ended up staying at home or in town instead… weird things happening people, weird things…

That’s it for me today. I need to get some rest for my first day. *Excited screaming*

Thanks Amanda for hosting!

With attitude and nail polish, Anoushé xoxo

Ugh.

You GUUUUYS.

I need to rant.

So grab a snack – you’re in for a long, non-Hemingway-like slew of sentences a.k.a. my thoughts that I have kept hidden away for far too long and are now creeping up on me to haunt me.

Ugh. I need a glass of champagne…

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Or some of your time and patience to listen to my endless thought-process…

So let me give you a bit of a look-see into what’s going on in my brain right now:

Recycled pic, but depicts my feelings well

Recycled pic, but depicts my feelings well

I’ve mentioned before that I hope to start with CrossFit soon. Nothing bad with that right?

Wrong – because it is just another thing on my list of things I hope and wish to try.. you see CrossFit has become one of a million things “I want to take up when I get back to Zürich”

Keyword: “back to Zürich”

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Everything I have been wanting to start, finish, take-up, cook, test or put-away has been postponed to when I am “back in Zürich” (I haven’t even changed the light bulb in my room yet… and it stopped working long before I left 4 months ago).

In 2 very short months I will be home and will be starting at UniZH two weeks post-return.

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*Ahhhhhh Freak Out*

I realized this yesterday, and my best friend thus witnessed a mental breakdown that went as follows:

Best friend: “What are you doing September and do you want to come to France with me?”

Me: ” I don’t really have plans but need to get my life sorted out, i.e. finally lose that last bit of weight because I am incapable of eating the way that makes me feel my best in Munich, get my room (read: life) organized before school begins and sort out anything that needs to be sorted out before said school starts…

Best friend: “You are not the only one with stress…”

[The actual conversation was a little bit more lengthy but I have finally learned to summarize the important facts… let’s hope I can apply that to the endless books I will be needing to read and summarize for Media- and Communications]

Yup I know I am not the only.. but I deal with stress terribly and it makes me go cray cray. Hence this blog post where I just want need to rant…

Now on top of this revelation of actually having fairly little time to spare (again: T minus 2 months is NOT A LOT OF TIME), my current program of work, gym, food, occasional outings with friends during the week, and basically not sleeping at the weekends will need to change back to my Zürich lifestyle. And Zürich lifestyle means dance 3-4 times a week, continuing my gym membership, starting CrossFit, finding some time to relax (read: force myself to relax at yoga because I know no other way), catching up with my friends and family, going to university, studying, travelling, eating my favourite foods, occasionally going out… the list goes on and on and on…

I am stressing out over things that I should be looking forward to. Things that are actually amazing and are meant to be enjoyed… but I’ve been seeing this whole “back to Zürich” thing as such a big moment – the fixer of all my current problems and the place where my life will finally be under control (will it ever be, honestly, seriously?!) – that I am petrified of returning to “normal” life. Munich has been so care free, despite slight bumps along the way that returning to reality is freaking me out..

I’ve listed up a few woes that used to be part of my daily life or that used to motivate me through other stressful moments to highlight my desperation:

  • Dance is my passion – something I have always loved – this shouldn’t stress me out!
  • University is important – after two attempts, this third time has to be it; no excuses
  • My over-all health should be first all day err day anyways – especially because a healthy life means a happy life
  • My social life has always been too vital a part of my life and I stress with or without it…especially with questions like: “Will my friends still be there when I prioritize “me” and when will I ever find a boyfriend with all these other things I am filling my day with” to list the two top ones. These are then generally followed by “where is my life going anyways? Will I ever know what my calling is? Why don’t I just become a fitness instructor and combine my hobby with a career?” ..and so it continues…
  • Trying out new things should be a fun adventure, but I just don’t know where to fit it in…or if I want to give up anything for it…I am tied to my day to day activities and stress over change. I really hate change..

I sometimes wish there were more hours in a day, but then I would just fill those extra hours with more things. There are so many things I hope to do, see, achieve.. and suddenly I realized that I have been living in the future. I do this far too frequently… things that I always hoped to do or am meant to finish are stowed away in my mind for “better days”. I also worry too much about what could come (again fear of change) rather than concentrate on the here and now..

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I forget to just live in the moment sometimes. A little bit of planning is good – actually it is important for my overall mental health as I am a walking diary full of important memos, to-do lists and agendas. But I have obsessively been planning the “back in Zürich” part, when I actually could’ve knocked most of those things off my list a really long time ago (read: changed my light bulb perhaps?)… if I hadn’t spent all my weekends in Zürich going out until the roosters crow.. Yup – priorities..

Last weekend I promised myself something: I am going to stop fretting over what will come and live more in the now. I also want to do things I generally might not do. The idea came to me when my Oma was recounting the story of the time I would jump carelessly into a pool of freezing water and just not care.

That was the first and last time I did anything like that. I was twelve. Now I barely even enter water out of fear of exposing my “not-yet-perfect” body. Yeah, talk about confidence.

I thrive with structure. I know that. Nevertheless a little bit of spontaneity is important to live life to the fullest. Last week I went to two press meetings instead of to my favourite BodyPump class. Despite needing to be “bikini ready” for going to the beach next week. I got to see the launch of a new foundation and chose clubbing with some pretty awesome girls on a weeknight over sleep and mega-healthy meals.

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I also got to drink a fresh coconut for the first time.

Ok, it might not be as wild as jumping off a cliff with a mere bungy-string attached (which I don’t think I could ever do), but I got out of my structure and lived a little. And it was worth it!

So yes, I might want to do CrossFit, become Paleo, finish my bachelor and maybe start my master in another country, write a book, rule the world and end all hunger, preferably before catching some Oms at yoga and jiggling around to music with jazz-hands, I mean who doesn’t? … but maybe I should start small and try not to overwhelm myself – because as mentioned before, I don’t do stress well. How do I plan to overcome my tendency to try to plan my life, you might ask? hmm, well if I knew the answer I wouldn’t be ranting… but I think becoming a bit more spontaneous is key. Trying to live more in the here, now and near future, making smaller goals and adding on sports, outings, fun activities etc as enjoyable extras instead of making them a priority should be the way to go forward.

For example I've already accomplished doing the splits.. Now I can find a new goal  :)

For example I’ve already accomplished doing the splits.. Now I can find a new goal
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So maybe I shouldn’t follow a rigid schedule and maybe I should cancel one or two memberships to enable trying new things so that I don’t feel too committed. My studies should be my number one priority right now anyways (note to self!!), so I think I’ll try and see what I can fit in around that..

No one can plan the future, and I don’t really understand why I felt I could and should..

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…but I am glad I was able to catch my melt-down before it got too bad last night and I hope to become a bit more relaxed… because, well as corny as this may seem, you only life once [#yolo] and I “plan” to enjoy every second of it 🙂 Besides, I am a true believer in dreams coming true… I just need to stay calm and stop fretting that I may be wrong..

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Thanks for listening.. Feel free to comment (I encourage you to) and let me know your perspective on this subject 🙂

With attitude and nail polish, Anoushé xoxo